Let me tell you a story, the story of my life
My life story can be described as a journey towards the level of mental toughness, which would allow me to feel worthy and confident to go after my wildest dreams.
I struggled with low self-esteem in my childhood. I wanted so badly the approval and validation of a certain type of people that I started copying their behavior and following their view of life.
I was thinking that if I was accepted by these people then I will feel confident.
However, the more I was trying to look and behave like them, the worse my internal world felt. I felt helpless and hopeless because I didn’t know what the problem was and I didn’t have any idea of how I can get out of it.
Don’t get me wrong, I was doing great on the outside: A student, I had a loving family, financial security, good friends, great health, etc…
On the inside, though, I was afraid of people rejecting or making fun of me, which made me feel frustrated and insecure about myself. That is why I needed to always look confident, be strong and "in control" of my emotions. I also believed that admitting my weaknesses or asking for help wasn't acceptable because people would think less of me.
Because of all the above, I was walking on eggshells almost all the time.
Yet, all this was about to change. One day after an unfortunate car accident, I lost almost all of my material belongings. Surprisingly to everyone, but mostly to myself, I felt relieved. I felt freed and excited, ready for a new beginning. It felt like a big burden was taken off my shoulders.
This and a couple more experiences made me think that my confidence and happiness didn’t come from outside circumstances. So my strategy was totally wrong. I had to start from the beginning. Shortly after that, a friend of mine handed me a book. The book was the story of a very popular American lawyer, who, after a serious breakdown, decided to sell everything and go to the Himalayas on a journey of self-discovery.
My self-discovery continued by reading basically every self-help book I could get my hands on, challenging my point of view and changing my destructive behaviors with a constructive one. That made really a great difference in my confidence and performance.
The result was that at that time I graduated and immediately started working as an office consultant in a fast-growing travel company. Exceeding the sales targets and everyone’s expectations by far I was offered the position of Sales management. I was earning more than enough and I was receiving my long-desired respect.
This management position awakened my deepest fears and negative thoughts I was hiding even from myself and they took over me, which made me feel helpless again.
I realized that reading was not enough, I had to First, meet these people who have already achieved self-mastery and learn from them and second, examine myself to the core.
It took me years to process the information of people like Tony Robbins, Norbekov, Dale Carnegie, Dalai Lama, Osho, Eckhart Tolle, Neale Donald Walsh, Wayne Dyer, Louise Hay, Norman Vincent Peel, etc.
Furthermore, I went through group therapies, private cognitive-behavioral therapy, counseling, human design counseling, NLP basics, and numerous self-assessment tools and debriefs.
I became a self-discovery expert, and “suddenly” I realized that maybe, that’s what I want to do for a living. Namely, helping people to create a bulletproof mindset.